Reconcile your absence with your impact. Words are such fragile tokens. Paper skin that peels away in seasons. Forage for nesting birds and kindling fires. We don’t even see the impact crater’s edge as the precipice of some long-ago apocalypse. Visit the bay shore, or look down on the valley floor, but we don’t … Continue reading Resurrection Machine
Tag: joy
Summer Songs
Presence comes and goes. Here today, tomorrow unknown. Waiting for the day the garden grows and we’re all back at home. Fade away the scars of circumstance. You put on some music and we’ll dance. Try to forget, try to forgive, or just live in this life we’re in. Take away thoughts of doing … Continue reading Summer Songs
February March
Got to keep the fire fed. Can’t afford a break down. Winter comes around again, breathing that frozen breath. Stop here and we will die. Final as our last words. Got to keep the fire going, otherwise, we end up dead. One way or another, I’d like to open my eyes and see summer. … Continue reading February March
Spontaneous Acceleration
Shouting like a hard warning. A blazing sign in the sky, just before things begin to accelerate, like the action of a catapult. Potential becomes kinetic, instantaneously. No time to plan. No time to prepare. Just the blood rushing to your head, and your heart falling fast enough to make you think it’s going … Continue reading Spontaneous Acceleration
Waking From a Dream
Waking from a dream. Sit straight up, consumed by darkness. Even in the night, the mind fights to fit the pieces. Why is it so strange to be here in this body? Moments ago, alive. All the sensation without the physical. Are we right here? Or is this another sensory simulation we will wake … Continue reading Waking From a Dream
Dissembler
Why do you still look down on the ground that consumed your melancholy? You were wide awake last night, searching for some new energy. Lift your face to the sky. Try to remember the stars. There is so much that you have gained and lost in this world, trying to account for it all … Continue reading Dissembler
The Apprentice
Searching the sky for You, finding only amorphous clouds. No pareidolia today, no secret patterns in the program found. Looks like it’s just me today. Gonna have to make it on my own. So far from were I’ve been and still so long to go. Remember when You taught me magic? How to see … Continue reading The Apprentice
Duo
Why have you brought to me possibly such symmetry? Oppose my experience in poverty with prosperity. Feed my hunger, break my fast. End my penance, bleeding for my past. How dare you shift my vision up, out, and away? How could you bandage my wounds and take away the pain? I hear you say, … Continue reading Duo
02.18.23
Tying to make it all add up to you. Subtle kinds of equations with hidden integers I miss every time. Look across the room to you, like I’m seeing high art for the first time in my life. Beggar of a rich man. Cretin of a savant. Shatter every expectation that I have ever … Continue reading 02.18.23
Snakes and Ladders
Bled my way into deals with the devil. Shed my skin didn’t recognize my face. All this is so insane, it seems ordinary. Wish I’d never done what I’ve done to escape. Played a game rung by rung. Catch a glimpse of it. Climb up on the shoulders of my friends and try to … Continue reading Snakes and Ladders
Road magic
Seeking part of me in this. Never what I thought I was. Clashing with my ego. Abandoning reason for love. Two paths, leading to the same grave. A biathlon I will ride. One thing becoming another, as I walk through this life. Follow the dreams. it all seems impossible, but the possible doesn’t seem … Continue reading Road magic
High Horses
What’s the matter? Are you not finding what you wanted here? You were so certain that life your yours to bear. Years of disappointment and now you just don’t care. Do you even dream anymore? Or is life just a nightmare? Sit back with your silent eyes and speak small words that are easy … Continue reading High Horses
Trespassers
Kill the mind. Trespasser of consciousness. Come through the dark within, seeming without. Never so much as an inkling. Dreams born into reality. Secret inside, existing in perfect ignorance. One and one are two, but then comes three. No rethinking of the equation. It has been this way since time began. Survival and sustainment. … Continue reading Trespassers
Trouble
If there’s gonna be trouble, let’s just get it started now. I already know the wrong thing will be the first thing out of my mouth. I’m not gonna lie and I’m not gonna try to hurt you in all those selfish ways we can devise. I just wanna talk until we cry and … Continue reading Trouble
Clearing Out the Cobwebs
Give your head a shake. Try to break away from the web of yesterday. This little game we play, ends in a grim charade. Mourning every dead and gone possibility, eventually we all go to the same places. Cobwebs in dusty corners of our minds. Dark shadows where regretful times reside. Sometimes you must … Continue reading Clearing Out the Cobwebs
Undiscovered Country
Holding in and holding out. Waiting on the dawn, this most perfect moment. All of me, or nothing at all. Scales fall away from my eyes and bring a balance to this war of mine. Falling to pieces. Knowing what peace is. Something new awaits, but I was born afraid and never learned to … Continue reading Undiscovered Country
Love Your Hate
Love your hate. Embrace it, but only for a moment. Revel in it, for there is something in it that is irrevocably “You”. Let it exist. Your anger at the cold heart. of the world. The carelessness with which you are abused and discarded. The ambivalence of sickness and of death. Love your hate. … Continue reading Love Your Hate
Making Mountains
Shouting to a stone to move. Might a well scream underwater and expect the fish to understand my frustration. Why waste my breath? I’m not getting you to change. I am a creature of my habits, just like you and yours. Push the rock back up the hill. Punishment for seeking visions. Transmute matter … Continue reading Making Mountains
Intonation
Have you ever heard the words that speak deep into your soul? Has their timbre ever changed you? Has their meaning ever meant everything? Breathe in the air, hold it in my lungs, so briefly. Let the soft kiss of life fill me from within. Then, I exhale. Body transpires carbon dioxide, and on … Continue reading Intonation
Death and Oblivion
The voices of the dead whisper, “It doesn’t matter anymore.” And I’m inclined to believe them, but only with the dead parts of me. They point to scars on my mind and by body and say, “You’ve had enough, Kid. Why don’t you just admit life has defeated you, and lay down and die … Continue reading Death and Oblivion