.
God,
put my mind at ease.
Let my soul come clean,
as I make my way
out into deep garbage.
I can’t say why
my path leads me inside
a place that I
have long avoided.
You tell me
that there’s some truth
in there
that I
must recover from the pit.
And so,
I go,
to get deep inside of it.
The black morass
of rotten, putrid shit.
I’m sorry, Lord
if I curse,
but there’s no end to it.
I didn’t fit
well
with the world they made.
I tried my whole life
to thrive inside a cage,
but the wild world outside
always called my name.
So, I listened to the song
an saw Your face.
You set me a task
that I feared to attempt.
I didn’t want to leave the comforts
of my tents.
But You have
strange ways
of speaking plain,
and soon,
I found myself out in the rain.
Asking You
to set my mind at ease.
Begging You to make me clean,
before I set out on this
voyage for truth,
and go out into the deep garbage,
for You.
I must be
so equipped.
Perhaps my sins
make me the perfect candidate.
Not one of those
You felt inclined to just acquit,
but use me, Lord
in any way that You see fit.
I’ll go,
there’s no other way for it.
.
.
DJR – 2023
