I don’t hate you anymore.
Not sure I ever did.
Oh, I know
that there were moments
that I wished I’d had
the strength
to shut you out,
put you down,
and make you listen.
But hate?
No.
Never been a factor.
Hatred is nothing.
It is uncreation,
and I’ve had enough
of nothing
to last a lifetime.
Lord,
I don’t want nothing.
No, I don’t’ want nothing.
I need something
to chase the nothing away.
I’ve tried pills,
I’ve tried booze,
I’ve tried everything.
Lord,
but all it brought me
was nothing, and pain.
I don’t want nothing.
No, I don’t want nothing.
There must be something
that puts life
in my veins.
I’m long past wondering.
I know for sure, now
that love must be the way.
But it just isn’t easy, Lord.
No, it’s a trial
some days,
even just to smile.
But I can’t hate you.
Lord only knows how.
You’re gone
and I’m still around.
Trying to love
a world that loves
nothing.
DJR – 2023
