Tune out.
Placing myself
somewhere else.
I cannot dwell
here,
in Hell,
Dear.
Playing the hand
I was dealt.
Waited a long time
for this world
to show its cards.
Made a few
bad plays.
It didn’t have to be
this hard.
Now, I am stepping out
on the game.
Take the pot
and make
a perfect getaway.
Straight flush.
Aces high.
I’m not afraid to live
and I’m
not afraid to die.
I have made my peace
with the sky.
See all you fuckers
on the other side.
Time to be alive.
Been down.
Been dead.
Allowed too many demons
to crowd my head.
Too many doubts
I could’ve drowned
in dread.
Pretty sure I almost did.
Going out
with an explosion
and a smile.
First real one I’ve worn
in quite a while.
Feels good
not to have to fit
all this shit
into such a short life.
I’m tuning out.
Taking myself
somewhere else.
I cannot dwell
here,
in Hell, Dear.
I’ve played the hand
I was dealt.
DJR – 2022
