.
Taking stock.
Shuffling through myself
for reference.
Needing to oppose,
but resistance
to this current’s futile.
What have I begun?
Standing here
in start relief.
Changed my canvas
and my palette.
Now, my style
doesn’t fit the borders.
Maybe it never did.
This is what they call
“A change in perception.”
Not where habits grow,
but where the mind changes
incrementally.
Hijack the rewards center.
Commandeer
the dopamine flow.
He who controls
the neurotransmitters
controls the space
within and without.
Watch a single domino fall.
Initiate the topple.
Am I ready
for the ride of my life?
Everything hangs
on this one.
No more chances,
this is it.
Cut away the main canopy.
Free fall.
Count to three
and pull the rip-cord.
Praying to God
that my reserve deploys.
There is nothing
between me
and everything.
Going down.
This is it, now.
My “Hail Mary”.
My masterpiece.
My Opus.
HG – 2022
