You need to get moving on.
I’ve tried to push you,
pull you,
drop you from a high place,
but when I turn back around
I find you here,
imprinted on this space and time.
I want you to disappear.
I want to blink,
and when I do,
I want to not see you
sitting there,
trapped in a memory.
I see you
see yourself,
and somewhere in there
you lost the direction,
and all your momentum.
I know you’re scared,
because it’s a big world out there
and you’ve been wounded.
Once was one time too many.
It’s hard
to convince you
that the scars you pick up
along the way
don’t all add up
to a tragedy.
All those things
that pass before your eyes,
out there in the sky;
they make you more amazing.
So easy to just lay back
and let the fear
seep into your bones,
like smoke,
like the feeling
of letting go.
But, it’s all fake.
They’re gonna find you here,
lost to the world,
because you were too afraid
to escape.
I’ll buy your way.
A bus ticket,
or a plane.
Whatever it takes
to erase you
from this landscape.
You ought to be everywhere.
You are meant for anywhere,
other than this.
This isn’t an existence.
This is keeping
the game on pause,
because you got to the hard part.
Don’t trap your heart here.
Disappear.
HG – 2022
