.
You stay closed to me.
Walled off,
like an ancient city.
What are you protecting?
What are you afraid of?
I thought we had agreed
that we would seek
common ground.
.
Adversaries
on the battlefield,
but we refined.
Our warfare civilized,
so if we disagreed
we could settle things
with little bloodshed.
.
You do not engage,
no matter how hard
I try to provoke you.
No matter what I say,
or do,
you will not let me in.
.
I know you believe
some pretty backwards things.
I know you think
thoughts that are dangerous.
I know sometimes,
you really don’t like me
and my kind,
and I want to know why,
but you won’t tell me.
.
You have been colluding
with the powers that be
to get rid of me.
You would use all the power
at your disposal
to wipe me out.
.
Manipulate the past,
to change the present conversation,
to undermine the validity
of my existence.
You want me dead,
and all those like me.
.
I keep waiting
for my neighbors and colleagues
to turn against me.
I know you are planning
another holocaust.
Why won’t you admit it?
The hate in your heart,
the way you dehumanize us
with language and symbols
of your hate and derision.
.
I know it’s how you’re feeling.
Open up,
so I can get inside
and tear all of that evil
out of you.
Why won’t you let me in,
so that I
can cure you of your wickedness?
Cleanse you of dark spirits.
.
You turned on me.
Betrayed me.
Broke our special little code.
We were supposed to be equals,
but now,
you want to be alone.
I would rather destroy you
than let you go.
.
If you don’t let me in
to change you from the inside,
then I will do it with fire,
and then you will tell me
how you really feel.
All that hatred
will spew out of you
and just before you die,
you will be exorcised,
and I will be justified.
.
Why would you make me do this?
What do you have to hide?
Tell me all your secrets,
I need to steal them,
before it comes down
to the dissonance
of blood and fire,
where only victory
is Truth.
.
.
HG – 2022
