Splitting through
a peaceful moment,
a high pitched scream,
loud enough
to make the dead
moan for quiet.
Splitting though the air,
the sky,
the mind.
Another one awakens
to a life
on the other side.
First day
in a new reality.
Didn’t believe what they were told.
Didn’t believe what they were shown.
lived in whatever way
they wanted,
on their own.
Such a fading existence.
So easy to deny what’s real
when you’re living in a fantasy
and everyone around you
is living in a fantasy, too.
Then, one day you wake
to find
the walls of reality
stark and bare of their integrity.
You just stare in disbelief.
This isn’t what it’s supposed to be.
You have no help, just a certainty,
that everything’s a responsibility
that falls to you, now.
The fantasy comes down.
First day in the real world.
You have to do it yourself.
There is no one else.
This time it’s all on you.
Let’s see what you can do.
No chemicals to take away
the pain of every day.
Nothing to bring joy in the place
of missing out on everything.
You’re going to have to make yourself,
and it’s going to be hard at first.
The day-to-day is gonna grind,
and I promise that it will hurt,
but you don’t know how strong you are.
No fantasy required at all.
You’re gonna find your feet.
You’re gonna stand tall.
The scream you’re screaming now
will become a sigh of relief.
You’re going to be true.
You’re going to believe
in your true self.
First day of something else.
HG – 2022
