Struggling inside.
Who you want to be
resides
under all this
endless detritus.
you’ve been
picking at
old wounds again,
letting the life drain out.
Can’t just let yourself heal,
rather keep digging the ground.
Something as simple
as just existing
escapes your grasp.
You’re so close,
yet so far,
after so long,
at last,
you’re at the end
of your rope
at the bottom of the world.
You could never be satisfied
with just being hurt
and moving on.
You had to play
the victim
didn’t you?
Now,
you can join
your retinue.
The suffering will continue
until you find it in you.
to live
your life.
It comes from the inside.
It’s in there,
somewhere.
Buried deep,
I know you’re scared
to let it live,
because it’s everything
you said it isn’t.
You’re such a tragedy,
but it’s comedic,
as you fight to deny
the very thing
that would keep you alive
and call you out
of that Hell you reside in
inside yourself.
In the end,
you’ll have no one to blame,
but you.
Why let all this needless suffering
continue?
Life only comfort
for a while.
Don’t you want to die
with a smile?
HG – 2022
