This light
comforts me,
keeps me
safe and warm,
and wards off
the enemy
that seeks me,
gives me
shelter from the storm.
I will follow it
to the stone.
one that solid place
I will build
my home.
I’ve been falling,
fighting
all alone.
I was found
and now,
I am strong.
This light
hunts me,
exposes me,
keeps me
terrified
of everything.
Wanting,
hungering.
A soulless thing
that keeps me
running,
hiding,
questioning
the meaning
behind
all of this.
It suffuses
this world.
Sick,
like the mind
of a torturer.
Why can’t it just
leave me alone?
I’ve run so far
I’m on my own.
The darkness
is my only home,
the place
where I belong.
This light,
just shines.
It is up to me
to decide
if I’m
oppressed by
it’s luminescence,
or if by
this light
I will
be liberated.
It’s up to me
to decide
on which side
of this light
I will find
my life.
This light,
it shines
and will be bright
long after me
and my eyes
shut tight
and I’m gone
to wherever we go.
This light
came before
existed
when we were just
proteins
and amino acids.
This light
will exist
long after we are gone.
It’s up to me
to decide
which side
of this light
I am on.
HG – 2021
