It’s never going away.
That box, once opened
doesn’t just get closed again.
I paid the price
to bathe in an otherworldly glow
and know things I shouldn’t.
Made a deal with the devil
and broke a promise
that I wrote in blood.
Turns out my soul
was never mine.
There are things we only learn
when we step outside.
So, let it be.
She was on my mind,
what parts of me
were working then.
I denied everything,
because pain was my wine
And I could not forget.
My heart was in bad shape
and she knew me well.
I walked away
just in time
to dodge the killing blow.
I think her last name
is “Death” now.
So, let it be.
The future is going to come for me.
I’m not a soul unstained.
I’m scars,
and problems,
but I haven’t given up, yet.
There’s something inside me
that won’t let me quit.
As if part of me knows
something the rest doesn’t.
I wonder what it’s gonna take
to get to my own secrets?
What price
could I pay more?
This life is a blessing
and a curse,
but every so often,
there are rare moments
that make sense,
and everything has a purpose.
So, let it be.
HG – 2021