Closing my eyes,
listening to my skin,
feeling a vision
come over me.
Buried in these sensations
what once was pain
and endless uncertainty,
gets washed away
and I am floating
here
between
awakenings.
Always was a firm believer.
Not one to question,
until there was nothing left,
and all I had
were conundrums,
leading me in circles.
Couldn’t find the words
to fill the spaces
out in the world,
so,
I
went
inside.
Like a dead weight
was lifted
off my shoulders.
Sanctuary here.
Never wanted more,
just some comfort.
Not the physical kind,
but the kind
that lets me know
that I’m alive.
The craziest thing
that I could believe
was truer
that any other.
It turns out
that I
am
here.
Dawn breaks
and I break also.
Inside comes out
to greet the sun.
The hard shell
yielding its nectar.
The tree
springing from the seed.
It was
no longer
pursued, or persuaded.
No longer scared,
or ignorant.
It turns out
I matter.
I am
changing
forms.
Like energy.
HG – 2020
