I’m sorry,
but I let my mind wander
for a moment,
an hour,
a year.
Could I have passed though
a decade
without thought of you?
Center of my circle.
Once around me,
I dissuade
another from a constant folly.
Describing the day.
We were once
brilliant children,
made of light,
quick to smile.
Laughter was our native tongue.
What happened to us?
What crime did the world commit
to break us?
Shivering in the night
as I feel a ghostly presence,
walking on my future grave.
There is something wrong with time.
I am gone,
and you remain,
would be better than this present junction.
We both did our deals,
now only one of us is left to suffer.
How did
we let the world in
to divide us?
To destroy our ability
for seeing who we are?
No shared identity,
just that shining face again.
we use to take
ever easy escape,
until you tried to fade
one shade of darker grey.
I blacked out your name.
Did what I could to think
that it was going to be okay,
if I just walked away.
The boys we knew
would never waste their time.
They knew what was on the line.
I slipped away
for another moment,
another decade.
I’ve got my own debts to pay.
Why would the world
ever let us forget,
or move on,
even for just a moment?
Time,
is one very cruel thing,
in a world of very cruel things,
but we are only slaves
to ourselves
and our memories.
HG – 2020
