Every little death
I treasured;
not the dying,
but the resurrection.
There are no poetic words
for the terminal moment.
It is the quiet mourning after,
as I scrub away
the decaying flesh,
to find that smooth, new skin
underneath,
that dying becomes worthwhile.
Sure,
it takes longer and longer
these days,
and I wonder,
which time I won’t return;
but that’s a forever problem.
It’s not going away,
no matter how good I feel.
Fresh off another good death.
The fact is,
I’m not sure that I have it in me anymore.
I don’t yearn for that
new self feeling
like I used to.
Fact is,
I’m probably okay
with who I am these days,
enough that I could stay this way;
but that’s a forever problem,
not one I’ll figure out today.
The best I can do,
is the best I can do.
I don’t have to try to fade away.
Just happy for this morning,
I might even smile
and set off on the journey
as I am.
Smooth, clean skin.
Absolution,
or evolution?
I don’t even know,
and I’m not sure
I even want to.
Resurrection is a forever problem,
and I’ve got enough “now” problems
to worry about.
Not sure I’m ready to know
what it’s like to have
no problems at all.
HG – 2020
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