So terrified
for such a long time.
My creature of fear,
holds me close
and drinks from me.
Never had the benefit
of being numb.
Always felt everything,
every time.
Time has drained me of life.
Somehow I have found a way
to escape,
but I am still afraid.
Not sure what’s on the other side.
Shrugging off
this comfortable vampire.
Take a step,
and it’s still darkness.
Maybe everything I fear
is in my head?
No.
I know I must be careful.
The dark is full of unseen things,
and if I remember,
the light hides danger in plain sight.
Out of fear,
I move,
lest I go
out of my mind
with fear.
I move through the darkness,
to the light.
I’ve never been brave,
but I’m aware of courage.
I’m moving
out of pure survival.
Driven by fear,
more than love,
more than hope,
more than any other.
An emptiness before me,
that my curiosity fills for me.
This escape,
is just another day.
Save me something
for tomorrow.
I think I see the light
up ahead.
Do I go on?
I don’t know.
HG – 2020
