Pareidolia

So long,

been reaching out,

feeling my way around.

This place,

lightless,

shifting uncertainly.

 

With every tentative step,

I come nearer to

the calming place.

The warm embrace.

No longer troubled to

touch

your face.

 

Everything could have been

a blade,

in the dark,

and now the light come in.

I’m no longer terrified,

but my whole world

has been a lie.

 

I almost want

to close my eyes

again,

and settle back into the dark.

 

You were not

what I thought you were.

I ascribed things to you;

imaginings,

fairy tales,

hopes of what I wanted to be true.

 

Now, here you are,

some other creature.

One, that only

vaguely

resembles something like what I

dreamed,

and felt

in the dark.

 

It turns out,

everything I thought you were,

was all in my head.

 

Can’t unbreak the egg.

What’s known, now,

can’t be unknown.

No going back to

the cave,

but I

want to hate you so.

 

You were the lie that I told myself.

Something that I once believed,

but now, I see.

 

Fuck you, anyway.

 

 
HG – 2020

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