I know you’re struggling
in your isolation.
At first,
you thought you could disappear,
but now your body
and your mind
betray you.
You’re still here;
always there,
wherever you go.
Inescapable to yourself.
Step into the shadows.
I know you think
the dark can hide you,
but it only amplifies
everything you’re trying to conceal.
After a time,
I bet you’ll really hate yourself.
That’s okay,
you’re not alone.
We all know
the same pain;
isolated together
and told it was for our own good.
Remember when you started?
There was a hunger in your eyes.
You thought you could take it,
though you had only just tasted
solitude and silence.
The first echoes of your mind
resonating back to you.
One bite might have been enough;
now that thing
you were so eager to consume
is eating you
from the inside out.
All these tiny insecurities,
blown far out of proportion.
You could spend this time
making yourself stronger,
but it’s so much easier
to feed
your predilections,
and blame everyone,
but yourself.
Solitude;
such a wonderful,
beautiful
thing;
until it traps you
with the person
you hate
the most.
HG – 2020