I thought I had imagined this,
this day,
this thing,
this present moment,
better than this,
but here it is
and I can’t
dismiss it.
I thought my abilities
with words
and mental prowess
would have opened up
such possibilities,
but that is not how
any of this works.
I’m not that disappointed.
I have seen what’s out there,
whatever hells others imagined.
Some came true
in startling clarity.
Mine was not among them,
thankfully.
Just me,
in my half-realized dream,
trying to figure it out,
day by day,
and I think I’m getting closer.
HG – 2019
