I thought I had imagined this,

this day,

this thing,

this present moment,

better than this,

but here it is

and I can’t

dismiss it.

I thought my abilities

with words

and mental prowess

would have opened up

such possibilities,

but that is not how

any of this works.

I’m not that disappointed.

I have seen what’s out there,

whatever hells others imagined.

Some came true

in startling clarity.

Mine was not among them,

thankfully.

Just me,

in my half-realized dream,

trying to figure it out,

day by day,

and I think I’m getting closer.

 

HG – 2019