Trying to touch
my subconscious,
to see who I really am,
see what I really mean,
see what I believe.
You see;
I’ve been fooling myself.
I’m not what I ought to be.
I am a roaming dissident,
trapped,
thin in this body.
I’m not trying to escape,
just wanting to know how
things ended up this way,
the why of what’s happening, now
and what I can do
to do
what I need to
to make it better.
At this point in life,
I’ve been interacting with this plane,
this time,
this reality,
for a little while, now.
I’ve figured out a few
of the unspoken rules,
now, it is time
to see what I can do.
With a little will,
with a little skill,
coming for the kill.
Dressed to impress.
It’s all available.
Open source,
all access.
So, I am trying to touch
my subconscious,
to figure out
the why
of what I am.
HG – 2019