I don’t want to fight tonight.
I don’t want to seize the day.
Think that I can like what’s right,
I just want to be okay.
Under an empty sky,
I can feel it hold me down.
Used to pay to fade away.
Everything is different, now.
I know,
I’m not what I was,
but what I am
eludes me.
Seems I
was born to fight,
but I’ve never liked
the duty.
What must be done,
must be done,
and I will do it,
every day,
but I tell
the lights in the sky,
that I just want to be okay.
I don’t mind the dark to start.
I don’t mind being alone.
Here I’m speaking heart to heart,
in the only way I know.
Praying to what came before,
never waiting for replies.
Hoping there is something more
than another long good-bye.
Do you move
the way that you want to?
Do you see
all that you are?
Questions I throw up to the stars
come back to me,
irradiated,
if not what I deserve, so far.
Watching you
way up there,
moving through your own way.
I can’t see,
I can’t speak anyway.
I just want to be okay.
Alone,
under an empty sky;
I just want to be okay.
HG – 2019
