If I had no more days,
what would I say?
I’m not sure
I never said it all.
It’s been a while
and I’ve been at this
along time.
Would I tell you
to see the world in words
and not distain it?
Even with its constant failures.
The sunrise is
just as beautiful
as the sunset.
I arrived
and immediately
asked too much of you.
So sorry,
for being a provocateur.
I wish
that I knew for certain
all of the things
that I would need to say
before you let me go.
I guess
regrets and torments
are nothing new,
just wish I outgrew them.
I would tell you
that you’ve meant
more to me
than anything else
in this whole world.
I would tell you
not a day went by
that I didn’t think of you
and smile.
You were just as much
a sanctuary to me
as a lover.
With you
I always felt safe,
and loved,
and whole.
What else would I say,
if I were out of days?
I would make sure
you knew
you were looked after.
Not alone,
or opposed;
forever sheltered.
I would ask you
to lay your burdens down,
your grief and your sadness
and pick up your sword
and your shield,
because there is still so far to go.
If
I am not with you
after tomorrow,
just know that I love
you
and want the best for you.
Do
what you have to do
to be alive
and stay that way.
I love you.
HG – 2018
