I’m right where I need to be,
between the devil and the deep blue sea,
between the sky above me
and the Earth below;
I don’t know
what I don’t know.
I can’t care enough to lie,
and I can’t count the times
I’ve died
a little inside
when you walk by.
There are no second place parades.
Who knows just what it is these days?
I’ve come so far just to escape,
far away into the page
of a fable I’ll create.
It sounds great,
until you’re in it,
or until it’s gone
and you’re left sitting
there alone.
I’ve lost my pride
all on my own.
I’ve had a moment;
it moved on.
I’ve been committed
to the cause
and been acquitted
of my faults,
but never loved,
because I’m odd;
isn’t that strange?
Isn’t that all
we ever wanted
for so long?
Isn’t this
that kind of song?
That just goes on
and on
and on?
I’m right where I belong.
between the beats of my heart
and the sound of blood
in my veins.
Still feel alive,
still feel the pain.
I’m not what I was,
or what I’ll become.
I’m something else,
so that’s someone
I have to look forward to;
learning to
be someone new.
I’m alive,
or so it seems.
I’m still sleeping,
still have dreams.
I’ve got all I’ll ever need;
ever wanted
ever believed.
Not ready to fly
but ready to smile inside.
just for a little while,
so this is my
no good-bye.
HG – 2017