They say that it’s OK.
We can be any kind of way.
Everybody has a little larceny in them,
but I don’t want to offend,
or be their friend.
It’s just so easy
and I just lose myself
in the end.
I gave up drugs
and nicotine
to be the man that I could be.
They said that they could see
I had potential to exceed.
My goals were their goals,
my world was their throne.
I thought I had it figured out,
didn’t think it would explode.
In life I find
nothing is certain,
light only knows
where we go,
but I’m dying,
of that I am certain.
Day by day,
moment by moment,
I have taken back my skin,
retrieved my heart and mind from them.
Gave God my soul, my word, my sin
and grit my teeth to start again.
I found love without their permission
and gave myself the gifts you can’t.
Stepped back in gaze
upon the bigger picture
and found out that I was
just a tiny spot.
So I decided to burn
bright and hot.
So I’ll be seen long after I’m gone.
I’ll make my own mistakes.
I’ll learn just what it takes
to make my life a fire.
I’ll find my own desires.
I used to think
I needed their assent,
but I am not like them.
HG – 2017
