I thought it was obvious,
even through my calm, detached demeanor;
that I was handing on
only by my fingernails.
Couldn’t you read
the screams in my eyes?
Surely every time I smiled
you could hear me yell
Trapped in a long gone metaphor;
I’m sorry I didn’t have any more
clues to give to you.
I was stranded on the higher ground.
When you reached out and touched me,
all I felt were sure uncertainties.
My breath caught in my throat,
like a death rattle
and my heart beat
humming bird wing rhythms,
the scintillations subsided
and the screaming started again.
Why do we always come back here?
Why do we suffer each other so?
What is it about this place,
that drags us so far
into the blast furnace of passion and promise?
Only to quench us
in ice cold temporal reality.
Are we making ourselves stronger?
Or are we just seeing if we’ll shatter?
My eyes will never tell their secret.
My lips will never form the words
that would put your heart in retrograde,
or menace the requited feelings that we share.
Here, in our fairy tale existence,
I am no charming courtier
and you are no imprisoned princess.
We are travellers and grave robbers,
digging up precious pieces of time
from the ruins of our pasts
and trying to fit them,
like a child’s drawing,
into the fine latticework of the future.
I see you stop what you are doing
and turn your head half in my direction
and I believe,
for one second,
that you heard me.
HG – 2016