I have been playing dead
out of fear
that the behemoth
of time and duty
will take me.
I have been feigning death,
in hopes
that the monster of my life
will simply pass me by.
A childish man,
hiding under the proverbial covers,
safe only from imaginary boogeymen,
but not from life.
What a coward I have been.
What a deadbeat, non-participant
in my own life.
When those around me
wanted for comfort,
needed help,
required guidance,
were seeking leadership;
I just locked myself away
and prayed to die.
“… let this cup pass from me…”
Even Jesus didn’t want His purpose.
Jonah didn’t want his purpose,
Moses didn’t want his purpose;
come to think about it,
pretty much everyone
who is called by God
to fulfill some part of His plan
wants to run at first.
We deny our purpose.
We doubt ourselves.
We let fear
and insecurities
and enemies
fill our minds with hurtful
and pleasurable things
that make it easy
to procrastinate
and form artful excuses,
but as with all those called;
“Thy will be done”.
Eventually, we stand.
We straighten our spines
and take up our purpose,
our mission, our task
and then;
God help those
who would stand against us.
Set your eyes high,
my brothers and sisters;
for there is no Heaven
on this Earth.
But there is work to be done
and many yet to be saved
in the coming storm.
Rally your faculties,
train,
bolster and increase your stocks
and sharpen your blade,
true your arrows,
because for some of us;
it will be war.
God be with us.
Let his Holy Spirit
join with us
in accomplishing
His Divine Purpose.
Let us have compassion,
but give our enemies no quarter.
God be with us.
Amen
HG -2016
