I have blessings in my life
I will never be worthy of,
but I will fight every day
to return the love
I am now part of.
Shedding old skin
by grinding away
yesterday.
My present resembles nothing
that I ever dreamed;
far more than I ever asked for.
I can scarce believe.
Faith laid the way to this place,
never would have made it alone.
I’ve saved everything, but face,
given up myself for something great.
I am here by the skin of my teeth,
the grace of God
and blood I didn’t bleed,
but I’ll proudly shed it now
to protect this house.
I have been many wicked things
and some I’ll always be,
but I will keep kicking
the devil off my shoulder
to give the angel a chance to breathe.
I never conceived
of an honest, normal life.
I shattered my restraints
to wade into the fight.
I woke from dope and demons
and found myself alight
with fire and indicnation
erasing my whole life.
So I filled my space
with what I shout would suffice.
Turns out it was a lie.
Now I’m going back to basics,
back to faith
and making something
with what God gave.
For what I create on my own
is corrupted,
enslaved
degraded
insane – until now.
Something new has come.
HG – 2013
