Singing a song
and I will let it linger.
For so long,
I have hated whole the hunger.
Led an open mind to a closed door
– forcing the breach.
Draining my mind more
– experience the leech.
Bonded and bitter,
forsaking and taking.
Done more that I thought I could
to be mistaken.
Simplify and call me stupid,
not so easy – not a lie.
Crazy as a motherfuck,
might as well be left to die.
Instead of crying my eyes out,
or blowing my brains out;
using anger and liquor
to drive all the shame out.
Pride in I so weak in her,
reflects on what we never were.
Getting together one single thought
to hold and call my own.
There’s so little left of me,
all I am is skin and bones
and righteous rage,
soul for a sucker,
fade where touched
by self indulgent fuckers.
Humor it all
one second longer
and I’ll be stuck with the bill.
Don’t want change, or a dance
from luck, or circumstance;
I’ve got my own dreams to fulfill.
HG – 2000-2005
