Drawn into the life at a young age
with no boundary of a family
to keep one’s feet on the ground.
Harnessing energy at this stage,
to erase my enemy
and take back my mind from the clouds.
There is no soul here,
hopeless, without fear.
I can see the way clear
of these visions of madness.
Derivative such that I know I can’t have this.
Leach my way pure,
’til I’m finally sure;
clearly obscure.
If my beginnings are any indication,
by now, should be on permanent vacation.
Speak the same language,
still requires translation.
My advice?
Immediate sedation.
Well, I’m coming from somewhere,
I’d be better off having never been,
but I’m sure if I’m invited back,
I’ll go with no hesitation.
Got a soul, but he’s always
working overtime.
Ease my frustrations,
tempt my heart,
torture my mind.
Might need a day – might need the whole duration.
Find ways to medicate the situation.
My heart – My gift – My love – My life
Fuck you – You’ll pay with hate and die.
I’m in and now it’s getting easy,
to see all the tiny missing pieces.
Go myself this far – ain’t nuthin’ yet.
Just ’cause I don’t care,
don’t mean I’m careless.
HG – 2000 – 2005
